on being ready.

I’m 36 weeks pregnant this week. That means in, hopefully, about four-ish weeks our girl-baby will be born and home with Andrew and me and the puppies. Our lives will never be the same in about four weeks. FOUR WEEKS!

I can’t believe it. I remember taking the pregnancy test last October like it was yesterday. I remember sitting down at our dining room table and calling our families to share the news. I remember thinking, “Nine months is such a long time. It’s a good thing you get that long before you get a baby, because it gives you enough time to get used to the idea of being a parent for the rest of your life.” Nine months later, I can hardly wrap my head around it, let alone feel ready for it.

Andy and I have been sitting in our almost-complete (just waiting for the crib to be delivered) nursery at night (in our awesome new glider/recliner) in the dark, with the Twilight Turtle shining purple constellations onto the ceiling…reflecting on the massive change that is about to push it’s way out of my body. I say things like, “I can’t believe we are going to be her parents. What does being that sleep-deprived feel like? Her foot is underneath my ribs (still); I can’t wait to not be pregnant anymore. What are we even going to call this girl-baby??” He says things like, “I can’t believe we made this human being that is growing inside of you. What will our parenting style be? What do you do with girl-babies? What will she be doing on a normal night, like right now? How amazing is it that she’s 50% you and 50% me?” And then we sit there, staring at the stars on the ceiling, wondering in silence.

It is spellbinding.

I don’t think we will feel totally ready to be her parents or sure of the answers to any of our questions until that moment. The moment when we hold her in our arms for the first time, look into her eyes and see one another in them. In our little girl-baby. Our child.

I do know one thing for sure…I am ready for that moment now.

Comments

  1. ….And then there will be moments down the road where you’ll be, “what were we thinking??!!” 😉

    Such exciting times!! Enjoy every second!!

  2. It’s crazy how time flies, isn’t it? I feel ready, yet at times, I feel completely not-ready. Making and growing babies is such a cool yet such a different experience! 🙂

  3. It’s amazing that having a baby is something so common – there’s bunches of them born every day – and at the same time – a miracle, a new life, a new person on the earth that was never here before. The possibilities are endless!!

  4. This is such a sweet post. There is absolutely no way to describe the joy and love you will feel when you hold her for the first time. It’s a magical thing. Even now as I rock a sleepy Betsy, I’m overcome with emotions. So happy for you. Enjoy every single moment!

  5. four weeks!!! YAY! 3 of mine were 36 weekers, so in reality you may have much less than 4 weeks 😉 It just means now she can show up any day she chooses. I can’t wait to read that post, it is truly a miracle moment when you see your baby for the first time!

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